I was super nervous
I mean super anxious
When I get anxious I sometimes forget to breathe
And get very disorientated
My daughter told me to calm down
And to stop overthinking
So, of course, I over thought even more
I mean it’s like saying don’t think about the blue elephant
Immediately you think of the blue elephant right?
Yesterday I delivered a speech to my club
A club I had delivered hundreds of times over the last 7 years
I didn’t like the energy and with the Mercury Retrograde in full swing, I knew it wasn’t my energy
FYI: Just about all forms of communication—whether it be negotiating, buying, selling, speaking, listening and editing—may seem to face some roadblocks during retrograde.
So I practised some NLP techniques to help me take away the feeling of inadequacy, incompetence and insecurity.
I walked for 25 minutes to Greenwich, mindfully trying to let go of this fear of being seen because it was paralysing me
Because this speech was way out of my comfort zone, or at least that’s what I told myself
I am a grown-ass woman, about to do ‘silly voices’ I kept on repeating in my head
Oh the judgement that washed over me like a wave of sticky caramel sauce that just felt wrong
When I arrived at the club, one of the members came and spoke to me
He could clearly see my energy was off
He had to remind me of who I am
Remind me of what I did
And honestly, it went in one ear and out the other
Did I do the speech?
OF COURSE, I DID!
Because that energy, that negative noise was the E.G.O AKA Edging God Out – Wayne Dyer
So I let the noises continue
Breathed in an out and said thank you
I wasn’t going to abandon myself
So I took to the stage
And honestly, the rest is blank
I forgot about me because I surrendered
I had a message to deliver to someone in that audience
A message to live on purpose
A message to not compare
A message told through the old folk tale the Hare and the Tortoise
Feedback like wow, wow, wow I am inspired, thank you was received in abundance
The point of me telling you this story is because you have a message, many messages inside of you
And your messages are just as important as everyone else’s
Your message will touch someone else’s life so you can break old mindsets from their present and future generations
Don’t keep your message a secret so that people leave this planet with wounds that you could have helped them to heal, no matter the season.
You’re limitless, that is why you are reading this, I see you!
Ruth ‘Warrior Not Worrier’ Danquah
P.S. Limitless growth requires limitless change. If you want to explore how I can help you to see that limitless growth then book your exploration call now ruth-ellen.com/call
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